My Poetry
Finding Myself
"Be able to touch the sky with the most high that will not forsake us even in our darkest days.
I phase through life trying to find my way hoping that my purpose will come to save me.
My mind is trapped in a fog fearing the worst cases of people that I love or come into contact with.
Fearing that one day their faces will become the very similar characters I have dealt with in the past, so I push them away.
Father god I know you can hear me please rid me of this burning rage of anger and frustration before it destroys everything that I hold dear.
Fear is controlling my every move, I can’t move because the people that is standing in front me wants to kill me, wait is it true.
Is it all in my head?
Am I a fool?
I don’t want to lose myself in this cycle.
It is such a bore to be in this war with oneself constantly creating false scenarios what others would do to you which may not be the truth.
I am fighting for guidance for my heart so I can have a fresh start on others and life itself.
It is easy to fall in the need for low-self-esteem because the familiarity of positivity is never what is seems.
Maybe its my fault because I choose to have those thoughts out of pure comfort from any anxiety.
That’s why I chose to seek help.
I am a baby bird ready to leave the nest.
I am excited.
I can’t wait to see the version that is free from all this burden so I can finally see what my people have always told me.
I am flying and I can’t stop crying.
I Love Me."
Lillian
"My grandma is the standard person in my life.
Someone I can only wish to become. Parent and human.
Set an unfair standard for a marriageable partner in the coming future.
She has become a beacon of light that touches the vast oceans of space to heaven.
Lillian, with her name in Hebrew meaning “My God is a Vow”
She has lived up to the further meaning of her name “God is my Oath”.
Someone who have always committed selfless acts and put others before herself.
A woman, who had raised five of her own kids, her sister and now grandkids and great grandkids.
The neighborhood mom that would feed others in need, naturally dedicating her life to helping her family and friends.
A rare person who has one of the biggest hearts,
The rarest of spirits that can touch the souls of whom she shares and love those without.
In my eyes, she has inherited the spirits of God’s disciples.
Though she may made mistakes in her lifetime, been used by others even to those closest to her,
She continued to endure, pray, shine a light of happiness and purity in every aspect of what a human being should strive for.
The bible say we were created in Gods image, debated the existence of angels and until now she have and will continue to be that proof."